Thursday, April 17, 2014

STUFF BLOGGERS DON'T TELL YOU

^^This image has little to do with this post other than that my books provide me comfort^^

Considering I spend more time on my blog than any other "meaningful" pursuit (other than reading or walking which no-one gets paid to do and probably fall into the category of "hobby" more than anything) I think I can safely call myself a "blogger". Unfortunately, I am not a very good one. I have neglected to journal my life for two weeks now, which is basically a no-no if you take your blogging seriously at all. An explanation? Before I do, I want to share something I read on my favourite blog, Heaven on Bourke. She was talking about her strive to make her blog an authentic one, one you can go to for a healthy dose of relatability and reality, which she defines as:

Laughing so hard that you accidentally fart in front of a boy you really like 
Getting to the check out at Coles and discovering you have insufficient funds
Having to put back that beautiful round hass avocado because you're dirt poor
Starting a new diet every Monday and failing every Sunday because no damn fool should have to eat raw food all the time
Reality is Lena Dunham's body
But not Lena Denham's body confidence

I know you can relate and I do too. I'm tired of only seeing the highlight reel of people's lives, be it in general conversation between friends, on facebook or in the blogosphere. So, in that vein, here's the stuff that never made the blog these past couple of weeks:

Brought my camera along to two exciting race days. Had nice dress on, good makeup and hair and noticed plenty of photo opps. Upon seeing the first few pictures of myself, I was so disgusted with my body I decided I wouldn't be blogging the event. 
Got tipsy instead to forget the negative thoughts in my head.
Approximately 7 out of 14 nights, I got drunk all by myself because life felt inexplicably dismal.
Became so disillusioned with the fact that online communication between friends, family and acquaintances had replaced real, human interaction that I deleted my Facebook. It remains deleted.
Also came close to shutting down my blog. Lacked motivation, told myself it was pointless and stupid. 
Spent more time listening to music than speaking to people. When I'm in a rut, I am not the kind of person who turns to people.
Went 6 days without washing my hair. 
Chain smoked.
Bought chocolate eggs for friends and family and had to buy replacements because I comfort ate almost all of them. 

I feel like getting back to blogging as much as possible, but next time I don't feel so chipper, I'll share it with you. I've historically kept diaries in the past where I never told the whole truth in case someone else read it. Truth is, I love the gritty in others. I don't want to live in a world where everyone submits only the final, edited copy for public consumption. Give me the notes and the frustrations! Tell me how you tried to break the keyboard in half, how many cigarette breaks you took, coffees you drank, trips back and forth to the fridge you made. I promise I'll tell you too. Along with all the recipes and crap I've bought lately, of course.

11 comments:

  1. Ooooh Anna haha this post was so real!
    I haven't blogged for over a month now as I'm currently searching to a buy a new house so with work I don't have the time! I too feel like I'm commiting the number one no no of blogging to not blog at least once a week (at least!) But sometimes life gets in the way, or sometimes it doesn't but you just don't feel your pictures or content are worthy enough of a blogpost that day. It does take alot of dedication at times, I'm finally getting round to putting a post up tomorrow but I feel guilty I left it that long. The way I see it my blog will be my own little diary that I could look back upon when I'm old and grey.

    Don't give up the blog we all have off days, weeks even! I loved this post because it was so real and it seems thats what people generally gravitate to! Plus I've totally felt the same when I've found myself drinking a glass of wine and I'm on my own haha!

    xxxx

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    1. Rebecca,

      Thanks for your understanding! I hope the house search is going well and you will soon be able to relax and put your feet up in your new digs!

      Of course I look forward to your posts but I completely understand that it isn't always so easy to blog all the time. I like the idea of a blog being a piece of yourself you can look back on. Perhaps we need to take the pressure off, post whatever comes to mind even if there are no pictures or the words don't come out right. It's our own space, after all. xoxoxo

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  2. Sometimes you just need the wine and the chocolate. That's okay.

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    1. Thank you, I think I needed to hear that xoxoxo

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  3. Hi Anna - love your blog, and love this post. A fledgling blogger, I often end up not posting for weeks because things haven't quite turned out as I expected. This post was a great reality check!

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    1. Thank you Jessica. I hope you do know that your readers will still be there even if you have some time out. Hope you have been enjoying your travels xoxo

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  4. Washing your hair is incredibly overrated shit my love! Loving the blog <3 You are awesome! Paige x

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    1. Hahahah your encouragement means a lot to me Paige! xoxo

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  5. Oh my goodness, this post is so great and so refreshing. I was beginning to think you were perfect and unreachable, and I just could not relate...but now, I think you are AWESOME! Hang in there during the bad times, we all have them!

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    1. Thank you!
      Perfection is a myth! And totally, totally overrated!
      xoxoxoxoxo

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  6. Anna

    Life is an emotional roller-coaster. We all have periods when nothing seems to go our way. No one is immune from it, not even people who seem to have everything. Eventually things do turn around. One thing to remember is, "happiness would not exist if we were always in that state" (how cool, I just made up a quote....lol). So chin up, smile, have a coffee, go for a walk/run, watch Groundhog Day (or your favourite movie.....American Beauty?). Drinking and smoking is definitely not the solution. Good luck and hope you break the rut!

    L xo

    PS - Give my best to your mum and family



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